Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Monday, 21 May 2012
Still feeling rather confused.
I feel like I should be doing something, like being productive and just making stuff happen. But I don't know what to do, where to start and I just feel so scattered. My thoughts are every where and I can't seem to grasp what I want and how to get it. I feel like I need to go soul searching..
It's like I'm headed towards an unset destination, I'm trying to find a way to get there, but I just end up exasperated. I hold the screams inside of me, balling up a wall of tension between my heart and my mind, wanting to truly make something out of all this passion that I possess, but not knowing absolutely what to make of it. I want to travel and see the world, love someone and share every beautiful moment with them. Come on, who doesn't? But this ideal seems so inaccessible right now.
Right now I just feel vulnerable and lonely, and in my own little world, with some visitors here and there that find a way in, a way to understand a part of me. Some people without me realising allow me to present a glimpse of this world and more often than not they surprise me by telling me that I possess wisdom, when in my reality all that I say are just plain observations of this life I lead, things I almost even consider common sense. I just want to find an escape and sore free and know that tomorrow will be okay and know that not growing up is okay and know that if I have enough heart I will succeed- that one day I won't have to just keeping wishing, and dreaming, and looking at the people I wish I were. That happiness and love will come to those who are patient.
I guess sometimes when you want something so much, it might actually break you.
It's like I'm headed towards an unset destination, I'm trying to find a way to get there, but I just end up exasperated. I hold the screams inside of me, balling up a wall of tension between my heart and my mind, wanting to truly make something out of all this passion that I possess, but not knowing absolutely what to make of it. I want to travel and see the world, love someone and share every beautiful moment with them. Come on, who doesn't? But this ideal seems so inaccessible right now.
Right now I just feel vulnerable and lonely, and in my own little world, with some visitors here and there that find a way in, a way to understand a part of me. Some people without me realising allow me to present a glimpse of this world and more often than not they surprise me by telling me that I possess wisdom, when in my reality all that I say are just plain observations of this life I lead, things I almost even consider common sense. I just want to find an escape and sore free and know that tomorrow will be okay and know that not growing up is okay and know that if I have enough heart I will succeed- that one day I won't have to just keeping wishing, and dreaming, and looking at the people I wish I were. That happiness and love will come to those who are patient.
I guess sometimes when you want something so much, it might actually break you.
Monday, 14 May 2012
Sunday, 13 May 2012
It feels so good to just relax, and be careless and practically stress free. Since the beginning of the year, I made so many commitments that every day was filled with things to do! It's almost like I have forgotten what it was like to just breathe and have fun carelessly. Hello summer 2012, boy am I excited to see what you have in store for me and I am so ready to take you on!
Thursday, 10 May 2012
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